This might come to a shocker to anyone reading this but Christians aren't perfect. In fact, we are the same as you. Broken. Ashamed. Angry. Sad. But no one talks about it. And I would like to apologize on behalf of anyone representing Jesus that has made it seem like they have it all together. Because we all know deep down that there is no one who has a perfect life or is a perfect person. But why are we so ashamed to admit we aren't perfect? A very amazing woman, Caroline Barnett, who I have the pleasure of listening to speak occasionally at my church once said this quote which I try to live my life by now which is "When you go first, you give others the opportunity to go second."
So here it goes. These are my confessions.
I struggle daily. I want to punch my sister in the face sometimes. I think bad things in my head while I am driving about the person on my bumper in traffic. Sometimes I say those bad things out loud. I always wonder what people would think if they knew I was a Christian, like if I had a bumper sticker on my car how much of an embarrassment I would be to God. So that's why I don't have a bumper sticker on the back of my car. Real talk. I am very critical of others sometimes. I always hear Gods small voice reminding me to see others as he sees them. I worry a lot. I am very vain sometimes. I am also very critical of myself. I am selfish. I am abstinent now and will be till I say 'I do' (I had a huge problem before I found God and thankfully he lets me know daily that I am pure and white as snow to him) but don't think for a second I am clear in that category. I think about it and Jesus said that even if you look at someone and think about that person, it is the same thing. I have to ask God daily to control my mind and thoughts. I am lazy. I like to eat too much. I lie. I was a drug addict. And an alcoholic. And it gets way worse than that, anything you can think of, I am guilty of and the truth is I am the same as you- the drunk, the druggie, the murderer, the gay person. I am a sinner. I said I was going to be honest here so I am. Because I am not concerned with anyone who knows Jesus...
I am concerned with the person who thinks they have to be perfect so they have been waiting to come to God. Guess what? That will never ever ever happen. Because then a perfect man who died on the cross for you would have wasted his life and we wouldn't need a savior. But we all need a savior because we all have sinned and fallen short. Do you realize how much he loves you?
He loves you more than his own sons beating heart.
He cares for you so much he sent his son to come die on a cross. Jesus was murdered for you. So why are you sitting there doing nothing? He wants you. He wants the broken messed up version of you. Not the one who pretends to have it all together. In His Word it says he is close to the brokenhearted which might just be his way of saying that He wants us when we are broken because he is the only one who can fix us. And being broken is the best place to be. Because then he can mold you into whatever he wants. He is close because he is the glue that holds us together. Without my Jesus, I would be the mess described above. But because I admit I am not perfect, I admit I need a perfect savior. The good news is that he makes me whole and that I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. He looks at me like those things never happened. We don't have to act perfect. In fact, I bet the man who died for us because he knew we weren't perfect would really appreciate it. Stop beating yourself up. He wants you to need him.
My name is Rachel Greene. I am a Christian. I am madly in love with Jesus and you just read my confessions.
Dear Jesus,
Thank you so much for dying on the cross for me and making it possible for me to be free from my sin. You carried my weight so I don't have to.. Help me to come to you when I feel the pressures of life building up and acknowledging that I need you. I need you Jesus. Come into my heart and fill me up with you. I want to be just like you. I love you. Amen.
