Fear or Believe

I am terrified this evening. I have been crying most of the night as I get ready to go back to Texas tomorrow. I don't want to leave but I know I have to go back and face my fears. Just for a recap, I moved to San Antonio to pursue a relationship which unexpectedly ended. I have been in Tennessee for the past three weeks letting my heart heal but I have to go back to reality. I have a lease in San Antonio and have committed to being there. Just now I am doing it alone. My heart hurts. It was hard to leave San Antonio and I fear every mile closer to Texas will be even harder as I feel I am driving towards a empty place where I have nothing. I am scared. I am broken. I am empty. Never in my life have I been more confused about what I am supposed to do with my life. The pressure to figure it all out is overwhelming and I just want to scream!

Anyone else ever had the rug ripped out from underneath you? People walked out of your life who you loved? Lost a family member, job, or maybe you did something to push someone away. You are left with a feeling of loneliness and confusion. Where do I go? What do I do? How about that you feel so alone that even when you cry out to God, all you hear is silence? You feel like even He has left you.

I have a lot of fear right now about the unknown but one thing I have to count on cause I don't have much left at this point is that God's promises are true. He keeps his Word. I have never had a moment in my life that I can look back on and say God wasn't standing there with me. If we fail to see Him, could it be we have taken our focus off what is important and looked so much at our problems, we don't see our God is so much bigger than our problems?

Here is my challenge to anyone who is fearful for what is ahead- Every time a fear or doubt tries to creep it's way into our heads this week, let's recognize them for what they are: LIES. And let's fight back with truth. Open up your Bible and start quoting scripture back to your fears. Your God will never leave you nor forsake you. He has plans for you. Plans that are good and not evil. He has chosen you. You are a child of the most high God. His love will never ever fail. He fights for you. Nothing is impossible for those who love Him. Truth always overcomes lies. Jesus always wins.

Dear God,

 Thank you for always keeping your promises. Help me to keep my eyes on you this week and to fight lies with Your truth. I love you and am so thankful for everything you do. Amen.